Today at 12:30 I had my Ukrainian lesson. I was feeling very nervous, because I was supposed to have a lesson yesterday, but I had to cancel it. Except I didn't cancel until fifteen minutes before, and that was rude of me, so I was worried she might be mad at me. But she wasn't, so it was all good.
I had a really good lesson today, much better than usual. I mean the lessons are always fun, I really enjoy them, but I have really bad study habits (thanks to years and years of undiagnosed ADHD) and so I never study and then I forget everything by the next lesson. She never says anything, but I'm always afraid she thinks that I am a lazy person. She doesn't know that I have ADHD or Executive Functioning Disorder, so when I don't study it looks like I'm just not studying because I don't feel like it. Plus I don't think that Ukraine is really big on mental health and learning disabilities. Not that I know, but I just get that kind of sense so far.
My cat is sitting on my wrists now so it's kind of hard to type.
The rest of my day was uneventful. I finished this book, "The Secret History" by Donna Tartt. I don't want to spoil the ending, but one of the characters dies in the end and I've been feeling very sad about it. I obviously didn't even know him, but I feel like I did. I was having a good time with my mom and grandma tonight over dinner and then I remembered that this character died and my stomach just dropped like a pit. I had to stop eating. It was weird. I need to start another book, get that one off my mind I think. Or maybe talk about it with people, so that it's not like someone I knew personally. I don't know, this has nothing to do with Ukrainian but I've been thinking about it a lot so I decided to write about it anyway, to get it off my chest.
I don't know, I've just been feeling very lonely.
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